Ok what I'm thankful for .. My kids... they been through a lot and survived :) My husband who is my rock and my bf. Mitzi,who loves me just the way I am . The rest of my nutty family. Lana,my other rock..my work buddies,couldn't do it without ya'll . My job..Thank the Creator I have it..I'm thankful that I had my time w.../ my sister Nancy and my Mom..miss them dearly.
Good drugs that make me sane and keeps me alive..My new therapist lol.. And to the Creator of us all and everything..thanks for hanging with me while I figured it out .. My on line buddies ..Kim you rock..Julie you too..ya'll are AMAZING folks ..My real life friends..everyone on of ya'll teach me so much about life and the world,a big thanks to you
And for another day...

Be still and know that I am God. Quakers like that verse. Many think the stillness referred to means silence. It does not. The Hebrew verb means to relax, let go, stop trying so hard, release. In order to see God, you have to stop striving, stop relying on your own strength. You have to give up your notions of how things should be. You have to let go of preferences and pet peeves. You have to open yourself up to the uncomfortable.

Then God shows up.

I usally pull a totem card for a lesson to learn at the start of each week.. but since I've had all this trouble with my mouth,teeth and pain I haven't..

Today I pulled a card.. and it was what I needed I pulled Hawk..Honor all life forms and all humans as messengers. Turst life's messages and signals.

I believe I'm on the right track :)

good to have a ok from the Unv. :)

Agava Nectar

good / bad/ same as sugar/ best thing in the world..

discuss

I'm still alive..just not posting here at on my other blog... I hope to change that .. trying to wean myself off of FB... maybe just use it to let folk know that I've posted to my Locovor blog..
Speaking of which, I'm going try my best to post more there.. more of my thoughts and opinion on things that are going on..

Been looking around the blog world at "homemaking" blogs.. for the most part I love them..they are so interesting ane helpiful..but all of them I come across are Christian.. which is not a bad thing..but I'm not Christian..
there are some good stuff in what they write.. some are not in your face type Christians.. some are pretty bad far far far to the right.. its scary..
But I enjoy them..
Wish I could stay home.. make my career my home and family .. thats where I think I would be the happiest..
But that's a long time coming.. at least 10 years.. by that time well I will be older .. ::sigh::

but I can still keep doing what I can .. :)

Life is good really... better than it has been in my life.. money is tight..got worries.. but that's just life.. and I'm ok w/ that.. :)

After the 5-6 years that I have had.. other than something happen to my kids or husband.. I think I can handle stuff.. :)

Its a nice change :)

at a fork in the road.. what to do .. I have a choice joining a coven.. I've been frieds w/ them for about a year ..great group of folks.. top notch.. like everyone of them..
well they are getting ready to close the group ... and since I've been a guest I've got to decide either join the group or remain a guest....

I've been thinking about this since yesterday.. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to join the group..
Not because I don't like them or because of my abandoment issues..
and I'm right proud of myself coming to this..
I don't want to join because this is not my path.. it wouldn't be fair for me or them..
In the pass I would HAVE to join.. I didn't want to be alone.. I would think " maybe I would miss out on something" didn't matter if the group didn't fit me at all.. I JUST had to join..
Now I understand what I need.. and what I'm willing to give out .. and I weight things more.. I stop and think .. wow what a concept lol..

I know I will be friends with these folks.. and will be invited to anything they have open.. and Im cool with that.. I really enjoy them..

But important thing is I understand more what I want for my path.. and I'm with it ..
growth is cool :)

love to all

“Every bit of the alleged science linking methane and cows to global warming is based on annual cropping, feedlots and herbivore abuse. It all crumbles if the production model becomes like our mob-stocking-herbivorous-solar-conversion-lignified-carbon-sequestration fertilization. America has traded 73 million bison requiring no petroleum, machinery or fertilizer for 45 million beef cattle, and we think we’re efficient. At Polyface, we practice biomimicry and have returned to those lush, high organic matter production models of the native herbivores. If every cow producer in the country would use this model, in less than 10 years we would sequester all the carbon that’s been emitted since the beginning of the industrial age.”

Joel Salatin

Hey guys have you heard about how Raw Milk will help children with autism ?

Hey guys I've been thinking I've got all this yarn I've made .. can I cut it up and used it to make a latch hook rug?

Denise

An address by Joel Salatin

October 26

The Curb Center
Belmont University
Free
7-9 PM
Call 615-460-6237 for details


Come and hear Joel Salatin discuss and answer your questions regarding sustainable small scale farming and our food system.

This is a great opportunity for all local food enthusiasts and farmers.

Salatin was featured in Michael Pollan's 'The Omnivore's Dilemma' and the documentary film 'Food, Inc'. He is the author of several books including 'You Can Farm Now'.

"Bernal suggests that apocalypse is "a very Western, Christian" concept projected onto the Maya, perhaps because Western myths are "exhausted."

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/33261483/ns/technology_and_science-science/

This week... all the meat we will be eating this time around will be 100% local/grass feed.. :)

Also order 20lbs of black beans from the Mill.. yeah!! They will be in in two weeks ..

Next is 20lb of pinto's and kidney's

http://www.naiatn.org/powwow/

Katie and I are going Sat afternoon.. any takers?

My beloved cousin on FB believes the earth is only 6,000 years old.. ::head to desk:::
she's soooo smart.. ::sigh:: really smart..

:::banging head:::

Why can't I keep my big mouth shut? My ears are burning ..
Having a political discusion w/ my manger is not the best thing to do.. esp. when it comes to farming..

::banging head:::

I must understand we both have the same concerns but coming from it from two very different ways and views..
Must remember that we are both concern about our world..

Must remember not let myself call her a boobey head .. no matter how wrong she is ..

Must remember that she is a major right wing Christian who has a signed picture of GW Bush on her office wall...

Must remember to present the facts as I see in in a manner that will open up possible her finally saying " hmm, I will look into what your saying"

Must remember that I am who I am and she is who she is and the we'll never see things eye to eye..

I did walk away.. so that is good ..

I need another job.. or a farm.. or ?

I need to learn to get along better w/ folks..

I just need out of here

ok.. I and another lady trade off each week to take te recycles to the recycle dumpser .. they are across the street from where I work.. so its not far,its not out of our way.. and me and my cowork believe its the right thing to do..right?

ok I get asked by another co worker this morning if "I" got anything in return for take taking care of the recycles.. any "perks or "golden ring" as she put it..
wtf? Now you have to understand that this woman is really everything I don't like about the Western culture..

I told her that I do it because its the right thing to do.. that's when she pressed me by asking if I was getting "perks" for doing this.. Like I'm only doing this because I want brownie points or get paid extra
I said " no,its just right across the street and it takes 5 mins of my time"
she shut up.. I know she will never understand so I don't even try to explain .. She's the type of person that has to get something in turn for doing somehthing .. ::rolling eys::
people like her make my teeth itch..

Its also another reminder how out of place I am here..

http://www.greenpergola.com/

The Green Guys know their stuff!!

Outside my window ~
Cool,sunny,birds singing,looks like fall is knocking at our door :)

I am thinking ~
Planning my day

I am thankful that ~
I could get my car fix.. even if meant going deeper in debit. If I'm patience I can have the repair bill paid off my credit card this month.. so it won't be so bad.
MAYBE have my car paid off too..

A good man :)

A job that I can make money to paid said bills .

Better mental health lol..

Finally understanding the stuff I've been working on past couple of months.. deep thoughts there. And a happy ending ..

Thankful that I finally coming to terms that the Pagan community is not my community and that I I'm happier when I'm not in it . Following through w/ that thought.
Thankful that I understand that I make my own community with whomever I choose with out fear of abandonment. Major step for me!
Learning my boundaries and learning to say no is not a bad thing and if folks don't understand then it's their problem not mine.

From the kitchen~
Nothing yet, but here in a moment oatmeal for breakfast. Homemade tomato soup for lunch .. Chicken stuff ( aka chicken stew ) over homemade biscuits and some type of veggies
Homemade bagels
Cooking my breakfast for the next week to freeze.. Much needed to get off the McDonald's merry go round.
Maybe breakfast burritos and bagels w/ cheese..

I am wearing ~
white tee shirt,my hippy pants and pink clogs

I am reading ~
Oh no!! I bought 7 books the other night!!! lol But just about done w/ The Contrary Farmer by Gene Logsdon.. Also started reading A Nation of Farmers by Sharon Askty (sp?)

I am creating ~
a life that I and my family wants and loves .
Picking my spinning back up :)
Dream boarding
Ceremonies to celebrate the holy days.. my way :)
Finishing up homework from my hoodoo class that should have been turned in weeks ago!!!!!


I am praying ~
that my mammogram I done yesterday is ok.
that my daughter makes good on her ACT test she is taking next month.. And that she understands what she is getting herself into w/ school.
that I have energy and the will to get myself in gear for a healthy lifestyle
A small cottage farm
Sheep
Chickens
I can find the battery charger so I can take pictures of said hoodoo homework lol

Around the house ~
Washing the living walls
Washing all the kic nacks
Hanging the winter curtains
Redoing the pictures above the tv
Dusting
People still sleeping including the dogs.. those lazy dogs lol


One of my favorite things ~
A cup of coffee .. mmmmmmmmmm

A few plans for the rest of the day ~
get the living room done before foot ball
cook for a little while this afternoon
Get work clothes ready for the week
Relax,with spinning and maybe dream boarding tonight.